Back To School

You know it's been a while since you posted last (besides comments from your sister-in-laws) when you sign back into typepad - it says" welcome back rachel! check out the new typepad!" . Great! Hopefully this version will be better.

Lots of updating and pictures to share since last time I was here. I kinda took the summer off. Granted I am not a teacher - I work year round.  I am on the phone and computer all day long at work - so it's nice to be free of technology when I get home at night. We must be outside enjoying the sun as much as we can while Ohio summer lasts.  But it was time to update my status on www.babysweeney.blogspot.com :)

It's back to school schedules already in our household. Today is Eddie's first day of 2 a days (aka: band camp). But it sounds much cooler when you say "2 a days" - plus it sounds like football! The marching band is growing ever year ! They are going to be playing some Bon Jovi, Gavin McGraw, Micheal Jackson and maybe Aerosmith this year.  It will be fun to take the boys to a couple home games so they can see Daddy and his other "kids".

Truthfully I just haven't felt like posting a lot lately. My life is not sunshine and rainbows all the time and reading some blogs out there - it's like -do these people live in the real world? Do they ever have a bad day? They seem to have the perfectly charming life and still find time to scrapbook and pick out the perfect paint color!  While I try to keep it real here - life is bittersweet  - I don't won't to bore my readers (all 5 of them) with my blue days or insane ramblings of a now broken childhood. 

I am trying not to get my feelings hurt. I am trying not to feel left out.  I am trying not to be lonely. I am trying not to be sad. I am trying to stay connected. I am trying not to feel overwhelmed.  I am trying to not want more.  I am trying to take the good with the bad. I am trying to say it out loud. I am trying to enjoy the moment.

I am trying.

Comments

[Erin Sweeney]

They're playing Bon Jovi? That is so awesome. I love me some Bon Jovi! hee hee! And nope, my life isn't perfect either. I think most of just try to put the happy things out there and keep the not-so-good-stuff private. Honestly, I think I posted my first serious-not-superficial-or-a-funny-story-about-my-girls entry last week. And I've been blogging for 4 1/2 years! So when are we scrapping again?

[marie]

oh rachel i miss you and think that we need to have another one of our starbucks after the kids go to bed nights. trust me, overwhelmed-all the time, homesick-terribly, feeling left out-definitely, but still here and still listening. whenever you need it.

[Missy]

{hugs} love you

[Char]

Oh Rachel...I have been checking your blog and no updates and then to hear you sad. I'm so sorry! Let's get the boys together for something fun and catch up. You have been on my mind but we haven't talked..vacations, work, etc. You are such a sweet and good person...I don't like it when you are sad. Hang in there!

[rebecca]

so sorry that things have been melancholy. On a side note, I was thinking that you probably aren't reading my blog - since it is clearly not rainbows and sunshine lately. I can relate to a lot of how you are feeling these days. Here's hoping that many days are around the bend that are filled with being included, feeling loved and moments full of company. big hug!

[Joann Cornelius]

Well said. But It is still no fun to feel sad and lonely. You are keeping it real. I hope my days are better stretched out ahead of me than they've been this past horrible week. One day at a time.

[Elizabeth]

I tend to drop off the face of the blogworld for weeks at a time, you're not the only one! Matt gets after me if I blog while grouchy because his grandparents are such faithful blog-checkers, and as their health is not so good... well, I tend to just drop off the face of the blogworld instead of post on those days.

On an unrelated note, I have such good memories of getting to tag along when my dad was the band director at Stow. So exciting to see the marching band from way up in the bleachers : ) I was pretty young—I think he left to go to U of A in 1978 or 1979? But I still remember. I bet the boys will have similar memories one day!